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Happy 2009, Become Universe!

I haven’t written since August and I certainly felt terrible about not writing. Not for the blog sake but for going so long without expressing myself in this way.

The last quarter of the 2008 was chaotic. There were tons of hardships that left me feeling lost but there were also great times that gave me a sense of how awesome life could be.  It was a year that was challenging for everyone around the world. We’ve all felt every thing on the list of emotions.  Our world is changing.  Wars, Crimes, Struggles, Lies, Defeat.  People say that we’re living in the times of the end. This is intimidating.  Speaking of which, have you seen the trailer for 2012?  It looks like a whole bunch of nothing but I also warn that you may piss in your pants for the thought of being scared to death by the thought of THE END! (AAHHHHH!!…) You Tube it if you haven’t seen it.

I can honestly testify on the phrase “God is great.” Obstacles that we face may indeed suck while we’re going facing them but in the end there is a beaming light that gives us direction to happiness. This closure is a burst of goodness that always makes life worth living. Challenges will always make sense concluding why we experienced it. Not just in a religious sense but the universe really works in an awe-inspiring way. You never know what force will carry you into the direction of your life. This may be a goal, an obstacle, or perhaps another human. For me it was a combination of everything but the biggest battle was one against me. I feel that I’m getting closer to my dreams and I’m more aware of the person that I am. I’m learning to accept every part of me flaws in all, with the effort of becoming a better version of myself every day.

Il bel far niente is the Italian phrase for “the beauty of doing nothing.” At the end of 2008, I had the pleasure of going home to my family in Philadelphia enjoying simpler times.  By the end of the vacation, I did not want to come back to Pittsburgh.  Work, School and social situations left me feeling like crawling into my bed at my mother’s house, watching TV (Will & Grace, 30 Rock), and eating what she calls “everything under the got damn sink.” When I returned back to my empty apartment in the ‘burgh, I was left doing that too. I had time to think and digest everything about 2008 that I loved and didn’t want to happen again. I even had to let go slightly of some things that I loved; eating carelessly is one of them.

Every year, there is always something to resolve from the last year. This year, I want to do my best at resolving issues as they come to me. No matter where life takes me while in this pursuit, I know it’s a battle that will leave me, like you, stronger, wiser and that much closer to life.

Cheers to a new year, new president, better lives, and bigger dreams to see!